Oh Laura. I am so sorry for you, and angry at whatever system failure or human failure allowed that to happen to you. Continuing on in prayer for you. I hope the next two weeks can have some healing and peace before you go to surgery. Love to you <3
I'm so sorry for this trauma Laura. I have not experienced medical trauma, but I'm so sorry this was all so fast, so unexpected, jarring, painful.
I can't remember if I've told you but my mom had breast cancer and had reconstructive surgery when I was in 8th grade. I'm trying to remember if some of your older ones are around that age. I just wanted to tell you as you prepare for surgery that it was actually kind of a sweet time for my family. My sister and I got close, and my best friend rallied around me. They said I was really quiet, not myself. I remember being surprised. I don't think I processed all what was happening. I don't remember feeling a whole lot(probably an unconscious strategy). I just wanted to tell you that despite that, I look back with good feelings because of the relationships around me, and that my mom is still cancer free! I look back at it as a time of hope. Recover well my friend. We are thinking and praying for you all.
As always, beautifully said Laura. I save many of your posts, but this one is an “extra” save as a reminder of how to walk along those we love (i.e. all humans) with love and grace. Personally, I have a daughter doing hard trauma work, and I have not always been the person in your final paragraph... am thinking I will cut and paste that last paragraph and keep it close at hand as we navigate this journey. I mention this not to turn this into my story, but to let you know how much I appreciate you. Period. No guilt or expectation that you “need” to keep writing because people like me need you :-) PS super upset to hear about this biopsy situation. I appreciate you sharing this with us. Stories like yours help me to better understand the lived reality that is our “health” care system, and hopefully, be a better voice for change.
PS-- clarification on paragraph-- I meant the final 3 paragraphs (not that it matters). Grateful also for people like you who KNOW God is present, even when, as you said, it is hard to believe.
May the Divine Physician, who loves you body, mind, and soul give you peace, strength, and healing. Praying for you, your family, and all your medical and support team. As always, I give thanks for your beautiful spirit and Spirit filled words.
All the Krugers are pulling for you. We look forward to you getting good and healthy and we look forward to your sarcasm and puns when you're ready to write them. :)
You started by saying you had no energy to say anything, yet you went on to pen a beautiful essay on dealing with pain and “bad days.” You’re doing great at bringing meaning to painful, difficult experiences. God uses everything, even the bad stuff, to draw us closer to Him. Prayers every day for you.
I want you to know that you were held in my prayers this weekend. I just completed my 17th 3Day 60 mile breast cancer walk (Komen) in San Diego. I walk so that women who are dealing with breast cancer can receive the best treatment available. I also pray that they receive compassion and true understanding. I am sorry that didn’t happen for you and I hope that you are in better hands for what lies ahead. You are a blessing to so many of us. Please care for yourself right now, we’ll be waiting for your words when you are able to send them out again. God bless you.
Thank you for your gifts even amidst a time of unspeakable suffering. Many Blessings to you and your loved ones. We are praying. Which, by the way, you taught us so much about how to do...🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
So glad you are giving yourself permission to do what you need to do. And sorry for all that has happened in the last week to crush your spirit a bit. Prayers to you as you prepare for surgery - alongside preparing for the birth of Christ. You are so liturgical even in your medical journey! Blessing upon Blessings-M
I’m thinking and praying for you. I had a double mastectomy in 2005. Your medical team will take good care of you. So many things I wish I could share with you, but I’m a stranger. Just a commenter on Substack. I’m praying for you.
medical trauma is so terrible. is such a vulnerable position to be in. i’m so sorry 🤍 we’re praying for you!
I am so sorry that happened to you. I will be praying for the most tender care and gentleness in your upcoming surgery.
Oh Laura. I am so sorry for you, and angry at whatever system failure or human failure allowed that to happen to you. Continuing on in prayer for you. I hope the next two weeks can have some healing and peace before you go to surgery. Love to you <3
I'm so sorry for this trauma Laura. I have not experienced medical trauma, but I'm so sorry this was all so fast, so unexpected, jarring, painful.
I can't remember if I've told you but my mom had breast cancer and had reconstructive surgery when I was in 8th grade. I'm trying to remember if some of your older ones are around that age. I just wanted to tell you as you prepare for surgery that it was actually kind of a sweet time for my family. My sister and I got close, and my best friend rallied around me. They said I was really quiet, not myself. I remember being surprised. I don't think I processed all what was happening. I don't remember feeling a whole lot(probably an unconscious strategy). I just wanted to tell you that despite that, I look back with good feelings because of the relationships around me, and that my mom is still cancer free! I look back at it as a time of hope. Recover well my friend. We are thinking and praying for you all.
As always, beautifully said Laura. I save many of your posts, but this one is an “extra” save as a reminder of how to walk along those we love (i.e. all humans) with love and grace. Personally, I have a daughter doing hard trauma work, and I have not always been the person in your final paragraph... am thinking I will cut and paste that last paragraph and keep it close at hand as we navigate this journey. I mention this not to turn this into my story, but to let you know how much I appreciate you. Period. No guilt or expectation that you “need” to keep writing because people like me need you :-) PS super upset to hear about this biopsy situation. I appreciate you sharing this with us. Stories like yours help me to better understand the lived reality that is our “health” care system, and hopefully, be a better voice for change.
PS-- clarification on paragraph-- I meant the final 3 paragraphs (not that it matters). Grateful also for people like you who KNOW God is present, even when, as you said, it is hard to believe.
May the Divine Physician, who loves you body, mind, and soul give you peace, strength, and healing. Praying for you, your family, and all your medical and support team. As always, I give thanks for your beautiful spirit and Spirit filled words.
All the Krugers are pulling for you. We look forward to you getting good and healthy and we look forward to your sarcasm and puns when you're ready to write them. :)
You started by saying you had no energy to say anything, yet you went on to pen a beautiful essay on dealing with pain and “bad days.” You’re doing great at bringing meaning to painful, difficult experiences. God uses everything, even the bad stuff, to draw us closer to Him. Prayers every day for you.
I want you to know that you were held in my prayers this weekend. I just completed my 17th 3Day 60 mile breast cancer walk (Komen) in San Diego. I walk so that women who are dealing with breast cancer can receive the best treatment available. I also pray that they receive compassion and true understanding. I am sorry that didn’t happen for you and I hope that you are in better hands for what lies ahead. You are a blessing to so many of us. Please care for yourself right now, we’ll be waiting for your words when you are able to send them out again. God bless you.
Thank you for your gifts even amidst a time of unspeakable suffering. Many Blessings to you and your loved ones. We are praying. Which, by the way, you taught us so much about how to do...🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Please take as much time as you need to rest and heal. We are all in your corner praying for you.
Very sorry for your pain, prayers for recovery and serenity.
So glad you are giving yourself permission to do what you need to do. And sorry for all that has happened in the last week to crush your spirit a bit. Prayers to you as you prepare for surgery - alongside preparing for the birth of Christ. You are so liturgical even in your medical journey! Blessing upon Blessings-M
There are no adequate words I can think of, except that I'm so sorry you went through this and I will be praying for you.
I’m thinking and praying for you. I had a double mastectomy in 2005. Your medical team will take good care of you. So many things I wish I could share with you, but I’m a stranger. Just a commenter on Substack. I’m praying for you.
I will miss you and your words. Take care and be loved ❤️